Be grateful

So, after 3-4 weeks of quite an exhausting experience of putting countless hours at work for building a power estimator tool as part of my project (I had to put some promises to some special people off during this period), I finally got time today for something else. Though energy sapping, working on and completing this power estimator tool gave me good satisfaction. The tool is built now, it looks nice and hopefully, it will go through the rigorous testing of QA at SoftJin , intact. Amen!!!

Ok... so I am here today to spend a quite Saturday noon at my home, with my HP laptop, writing whatever comes to my relaxed and happy mind. A weekend today, I want to spend it doing calculations on my own life and that of the dear ones...

As is the case in such situations, mind often wanders to reflect on the ultimate gift of God... The Life, and the eternal universal question associated with it. What is the secret to live a happy one, if there is any?

Life itself is sometimes very educative in answering this question for you.. I find after some introspection, that though life deprives you of many pleasures you feel will make you happy, the importance to appreciate what you already have, can not be overemphasized. Yes, sure, I want few more things to change in me, my friends, my family and my workplace. That said, I must at least take time to appreciate what God has bestowed on me.... Did I deserve all the success I have got, however moderate it was ? Did I deserve to live peacefully without much financial concern, the money that I take for granted ? Did I deserve to be born to the parents who did not think twice before providing all the reasonable facilities to me, trying hard so that I can complete my education and launch a career which gives good money and satisfaction to me (well, not always, but generally) ? What about the friends I have met till now, who have given me so much happiness by being in my life, guiding me through it with their advices and timely help ? Did I deserve them ? Who knows, maybe I did.. at least I would like to think that way... but then I consider this : There are many souls who struggle day in and day out, living a mediocre life in terms of comforts it offers.. Does none of them "deserve" it more than I do? Is none of them more intelligent, smart and a better human than me ?

Hmm....

In moments such as these, I thank God for the beauty of my life.. Despite its painful moments, which anyway are outnumbered by seemingly unrecognized happy ones.

Thank You God, and just as an afterthought, please make sure You continue the good work. I appreciate it. (Corporate mumbo-jumbo :) )

Having taken a moment to appreciate Him, given that all things good with me are not my doing, but His, I would like to bring His attention to the things which need improvement and NOW.

I am seriously working on improving my consistency and motivation levels of doing the important things, and doing them right. Procrastination, putting important things off, has been one of the major issues I have been facing all my life. It appears so simple, with the comfortable life we have, that it is frustrating to see my failure in being consistent at doing something I decide to do. There must be a silly reason to it, and it is perhaps a cyclic procedure.. procrastination feeds on itself.. You break a link and the whole system of putting things off suddenly starts unfolding itself, which really is all meaningless.

BTW, I am hugely impressed by people who "take actions", as generally one is impressed by the qualities one does not possess himself. I realize it tells about the people I appreciate and me as an individual too :)

Anyway, the key to breaking this loop of procrastination is keep putting myself in this zone or situation as often as I can, and God willing, some of those will result in fruitful actions.

I remember the Great Vivekanand's quote "Arise, Awake and rest not till the Goal is achieved."

On this beautiful thought, I end this particular discussion with You.

Rest later.